Chronic illness has been the biggest lesson in acceptance.
Unfortunately, this is not a one-time thing.
It’s a process of resistance- feeling the anger, grief, disappointment, frustration- for varying periods of time and then coming back into acceptance. And then being triggered and doing the whole thing all over again.
Read MoreThere is a breaking point when you’ve realized you’ve done SO much healing- physical, emotional, mental, spiritual, nervous system work, subconscious reprogramming, making big changes in your life, stepping outside of your comfort zone, etc. And all of these have helped tremendously in certain ways. And you are a much more authentic version of yourself. AND you are still dealing with pretty debilitating physical issues.
Read MoreI have an upcoming workshop in Portugal. The thought of going feels expansive, exciting, exhilarating.
And terrifying.
Because the truth is, I have spent most of this past year apartment-bound, most days in bed.
Read MoreMy whole life I felt like I needed to be doing something “productive” at all times- working, studying, going out, exercising, etc.
Enter Lyme. I was stuck in bed, unable to work, unable to move, in physical and emotional pain. My brain felt like mush and it was hard to read, think, or talk. I could barely do anything, let alone anything “productive.” At times, all I could do was sleep, eat, and shower (and even those were a struggle.) I felt guilt, shame, and embarrassment.