Chronic illness has been the biggest lesson in acceptance.
Unfortunately, this is not a one-time thing.
It’s a process of resistance- feeling the anger, grief, disappointment, frustration- for varying periods of time and then coming back into acceptance. And then being triggered and doing the whole thing all over again.
Read MoreI have an upcoming workshop in Portugal. The thought of going feels expansive, exciting, exhilarating.
And terrifying.
Because the truth is, I have spent most of this past year apartment-bound, most days in bed.
Read MoreWhen I got really sick, I created a “when I’m better” list of all of the things I planned to do when I felt better.
One of the things was start a business.
Last week, I started getting flu-like symptoms. I thought it was possibly a sinus infection. The next morning I woke up feeling even worse- achy, feverish, sore throat, sinus pain and pressure, nausea, fatigue, weakness, headache, with chills and sweats.
Read MoreSo I was reminded how unpredictable chronic symptoms are this week, unfortunately while on vacation in Colombia.
I haven’t mentioned it much on here, but every month I deal with intense PMS symptoms (unbearable cramps, nausea, achiness, headaches, sweats, chills, and occasional vomiting and lightheadedness) for 2-5 days each month. I plan everything around this, including this trip, and I have always been able to do so with accuracy.