Redefining "Productivity" When You Are Chronically Ill

My whole life I felt like I needed to be doing something “productive” at all times- working, studying, going out, exercising, etc. 

Enter Lyme. I was stuck in bed, unable to work, unable to move, in physical and emotional pain. My brain felt like mush and it was hard to read, think, or talk. I could barely do anything, let alone anything “productive.” At times, all I could do was sleep, eat, and shower (and even those were a struggle.) I felt guilt, shame, and embarrassment. 

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Reflecting On My First Year Back At Work After Medical Leave

I made it through my first year back at school. 

After two years on medical leave, I was nervous about returning to work in September, even part-time. It meant waking up at 5:50am, commuting over an hour, walking up and down five flights of stairs all day picking up and dropping off students, working with special needs kids who need a lot of attention, and then commuting an hour home.

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Dealing with the Emotions of Unexpected Flare-Ups

So I was reminded how unpredictable chronic symptoms are this week, unfortunately while on vacation in Colombia.

I haven’t mentioned it much on here, but every month I deal with intense PMS symptoms (unbearable cramps, nausea, achiness, headaches, sweats, chills, and occasional vomiting and lightheadedness) for 2-5 days each month. I plan everything around this, including this trip, and I have always been able to do so with accuracy. 

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How I Healed My Gut

Fifteen years ago I was diagnosed with Irritable Bowel Syndrome (IBS) after a month of taking antibiotics for a bladder infection. My stomach hurt after every meal and I was experiencing daily gas and bloating. I had consistent constipation and diarrhea. I felt as if there was a rock in my stomach and my digestion wasn’t working. I was prescribed colon relaxers, but they did nothing.

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How Energy Healing Helped me Heal

In order to get to where I am today (I still have fatigue and occasional headaches/sinus issues, but I used to have over 20 symptoms), energy healing played a big role.

We all have energy flowing through our bodies. Stress or trauma can create energy blockages in our body which can manifest as physical symptoms. Energy healing is a practice that removes energetic blocks in the body so that the body has a better capacity to heal itself.

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7 Ways To Reduce Anxiety

I always got stressed out easily, but when my Lyme symptoms started I began to get intense anxiety and panic attacks seemingly out of the blue. It was really scary because I had no idea how to manage it at the time. I have created a toolbox of strategies that have helped me when it comes on:

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Returning To Work After 2 Years

Three years ago, after getting back from a trip that involved hiking in California and Oregon, my body began to go haywire. I had struggled with health issues on and off for over the last 10 years, but I was always able to function. Now, I had no idea what was going on- I started getting flu-like symptoms that lingered, my digestion got worse, and I became unable to ignore the fatigue. I had constant sinus issues and headaches.

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5 Ways To Deal With Emotional Trauma

When you are healing from a physical illness, you may experience emotional trauma coming up to be healed. Stuff from the past that you pushed aside because it was too painful to deal with. Stuff you didn’t even realize was traumatic. But then there it is in your face, coming up to be seen and felt.

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